Neat and Tidy

I am an very messy and untidy person. Probably has something to do with laziness. But its all part of what I'm trying to work on. I want to start organizing the messy places around my house. First I want to start with my makeup stand area. That place is a mess and its overwhelming. So I found a few ideas to help me figure out how to control the chaos. 

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Monday List

I am feeling a lot better about everything today. I had a wonderful weekend with my husband. It was sunny and warm. I spoke with my mother for Mothers Day and Birthday yesterday. That was the last Mothers Day I will ever miss again. I get to cross that off my count down.

001. Get to the gym at least 3 times this week 

Last week I didn't go.

002. Burn 300 calories each trip to the gym (at least)

I want to do that in just cardio. Addition weight lifting is extra.

003. Get a heart rate monitor

I would like to get one that count calories burned too. That way I can keep track of what I burn while weight lifting too. 

004. Finish 11.22.63 by Steven King

I want to finish this week. Half the month is over and I want to be reading two books a month. I'd also like to write a review.

Monday Weight In / Fitness Update

Well its Monday so I got on the scale. I have to say I didn't like having to wait. I usually get on every morning to check. But it did help me stick to my calorie counter. I had it set to lose 1 pound this past week to ease back into it. I'll change it back to 2 for this week. I didn't lose an entire full pound but that's okay.



May.14.12-148.4
May.7.12-149.2


Monday May 14, 2012
20 min cardio on the elliptical. I'm not happy with it. I just couldn't breath today. But I pushed myself to 100 calories burned. Its better than nothing. 


Check out my fitness page to see the progress I have made so far. 

Play Time with Hiro

The other day Ryan and I spent some time just goofing around with our fur ball Hiro!! His Birthday is next Saturday, I'm going to give him the best 1st Birthday EVER!!! I'm linking up with Mrs Monologues for Fur Baby Friday

Hiro after all our play time !!

You may look but CAN'T EAT

Since I cannot be eating all sorts of yummy junk and unhealthy meals today I'm going to link up with thevintageapple for Oh How Pinteresting Wednesday and virtually enjoy all these yummy looking foods!!!

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I personally can't go wrong with baked goods and potato dishes!!!!! I have to say just looking at theses recipes is almost like eating them!!! with out all the nasty calories!!!!! The other day while I was checking out a family they were buying marshmallows ... apparently they now make flat square ones (perfect for smore's), chocolate mint, and cinnamon (I think it was cinnamon). Anyways, we must have just got them in the store... first thing I thought was yum I'm going to buy theses! But instead i gave them a sniff!!! hahaha!!! Just as good as eating them and again no calories! I KNOW ITS WEIRD but it works!!

Monday Weigh In

As a way to try and keep myself focused and on track I want to weigh myself every Monday. This way I have something to look forward to. Something that will keep me going. I wont get on the scale until Monday. If I feel that I have a had a good past week then Ill treat myself to something special. Id like it to not always be food, maybe a lazy day, or a trip to a book store, or a mini shopping trip. I'm very excited about this idea. I think it could work. This way I can keep track of it as I go, and in the long run maybe be even more of a motivation than I intend it to be. So here it is my first


Monday Weigh In. 


5/7/12- 149.2


Check out my fitness page to see the progress I have made so far. 

My Struggle / Monday List

For the past 4 years I have been in a war with food. It all started when Ryan left for basic training. Snacking was his replacement. I started to associate eating and watching tv. Then once we got married and moved in together we both kept eating.

We eat all the bad stuff too. Snacks, frozen foods, fast food, all the easy stuff to cook. We both have gained so much weight. Its spiraling out of control.

It needs to stop. But its become an addiction. We both give in to food, it just tastes too good.

But after we eat, we feel sick. Some times we'll feel sick for days after.

I feel like we are always on a diet. We just mess up and have to start over. Ryan and I are probably each others problems. Either one of us screw up and then cause the other one to join or we both give in together. And when we start eating bad its hard to stop. We probably spend so much money just on eating crappy foods.

I don't think it helps that I work at the grocery store and see everyone buying all their junk food. I think to myself "oh that looks good ill get that after work" and I do. Then I eat it after work. I have no self control.

I have managed to stick with it once. Ryan went home for a month his past January. While he was gone it was just me. I was able to stick with my diet and workout. I lost 12 pounds. It was very noticeable, I felt great. I bet that if I had kept it up I'd be close to where I want to be now. It makes me so sick thinking about how bad I have screwed that up.

I started over again recently. I wasn't doing my best but it was a good start. Then it was like I fell off the deep end last week. After working 52 hours (12 hours over my normal week) it was like food was the only thing that would make me happy and feel better again. And it does for a little bit and then by Sunday I felt so sick.

I don't know how to regain control again. I just keep going back. And each time I screw up... it takes me a step back. Early last week I lost 1 pound .... by the end of the week I gained 2. I hate that I do this. I dont want to be this person anymore.

ughhhh enough of me rambling about this... it just makes me unhappy.

so this week I only have one goal....

001. Get back on track

All I want to do is get back on track and stay with it